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I watched the Derren Brown show called ‘Fear & Faith‘, and in this blog post I’m going to discuss Part 1, which focuses on Fear, in which he had people unknowingly take placebo pills that they thought would stop ‘fear’, and in some cases others thought they were taking the drug in order to stop other phobias/habits like for example smoking. So these were people with a variety of phobias, like fear of heights or singing in public, and they took the pills and for almost everyone the pills were a success – their fear was gone, sometimes instantly.
This show is really ground-breaking, as it shows in a very clear way, the actual power we have to change how we experience ourselves, and that it is really as simple as no longer participating in, for example, fear. It shows that we can actually stop our fears/reactions in a single moment, that it is in fact possible to stop these fears/phobia/habits, and thus change how we experience ourselves in our day to day lives and in relationship to reality.
And it also shows that a placebo or belief in a pill isn’t required to make the fear reaction stop, as in the show, even after knowing the pill had been a placebo, the people’s fears did not return. It was enough to have had the placebo pills act as a ‘bridge’ in a way, in assisting and supporting these individuals to realize that they actually could live without that fear/phobia.
What this also shows, is that we are the ones actually responsible for our fear in the first place. Since we at any time can actually stop them, so we are really the ones in ‘control’, the only reason we ‘aren’t in control’ is because we’ve believed our fears to be who we are. I mean, this is no surprise when you look at what all takes place within our fears/what our fears consist of. There is multi-dimensions, where if you have a look at what goes on within you when a fear is activated, you’ll have dimensions of Thought, Imagination, Internal conversations, emotion/feeling Reactions, and certain physical Behaviors that manifest, thus it is like an entire ‘personality suit’ containing of all these various dimensions one can experience within it, when it is activated by a situation/event/scenario in one’s environment.
So, let’s take the example of having a fear of heights and you find yourself near a steep drop. You may have Thoughts pop up in your mind of images of you falling over the drop. And then you may start going through various scenes within your Imagination, as you, for example, play out a variety of scenarios of ‘what could happen’ in your mind, where you might imagine yourself falling over the edge and what the fall will be like and how you might land and how you’ll be injured, and there would be varying degrees that one would imagine depending on the extent of one’s participation in this particular fear.
And then there is the internal conversations or ‘backchat’ where we talk to ourself within ourself within certain phrases in our mind, which will vary according to the individual, so you may have phrases like “Oh god, what if I fall down that drop??” / “What if I lose my balance for just a moment and go teetering over the edge?” / “I bet I would be terribly injured if I fell down there” / “I’m so scared, I’ve got to get away from here”.
One will also have various emotion and feeling Reactions, in relation to each dimension, where one will experience particular energy-experiences of positive feelings or negative emotions, like for example, while one is within the Imagination dimension, imagining what could happen if one were to fall over the edge, an positive energy-experience of ‘excitement’ might come up, or perhaps a negative energy-experience of ‘terror’. And for example, while one is participating in the internal conversation of “Oh god, what if I fall down that drop??” one might experience ‘anxiety’.
Then with the thoughts, imagination and internal conversation going on, and the energy-experience reactions that activate in relation to each of those points, one will then experience changes/reactions in the physical internally, and externally in one’s physical behaviors, where for example, you might internally experience a trembling/shaking of the physical body, or a rush of adrenaline, and externally you might notice that you start ‘wringing’ your hands, or you start shuffling your feet away from the edge, or you might feel like your paralyzed and can’t move.
So, within all these various dimensions/experiences, it’s really like the mind has gone to every length to convince one that the experience one is having of, for example, being afraid of heights, is in fact real, and yet, it is really just a sequence of thoughts and energy-experiences taking place within us, that we haven’t realized that we in fact give permission to take place, simply by believing these thoughts and feelings we’re experiencing are actually who we are, and aren’t just simply thoughts and experiences that are taking place only in our mind, and not in actual reality. Yet we’ve come to believe that these experiences are who we are to such a degree and without realizing what is really going on within ourselves, it’s hard to step out of the characters we’ve always existed as, and requires an elaborate set-up as Derren put together in his show, to give a specific circumstance in which one is able to believe that the fear experience can actually stop, in essence so you can give yourself permission to stop accepting and allowing the experiences within yourself.
Thus, this show confirms what I have been applying for myself, within the life-coaching course, the Desteni I Process, that I have been walking for several years now, since its beginning, where you are assisted and supported to see, realize and understand that these reactions/experiences aren’t in fact real and thus canbe stopped, through becoming aware of the various dimensions at play within such patterns of behavior, as for example, in the example used above of fear of heights. Through this course, I’ve have walked a personalized process in identifying my own patterns of behavior that I’ve existed in self-unawareness for most of my life, where I was really just a ‘victim’ so to speak of the experiences that came up within me, because I just automatically accepted them as ‘who I am’ simply because they were there and I was experiencing them, so they ‘must be real’.
Within the Desteni I Process you’re shown the tools with which to walk yourself into an understanding of yourself and the patterns you exist as, so that you can evaluate in self-awareness, what it is you’re living, and how you would really like to be living, to stop for example fears and other patterns of self-limitation, so that we can really be free to live, just like those in the show who can now live without their crippling fears and habits and explore their true potential. The difference is that you get to become aware of yourself, and all the patterns you exist as, and you do this through self-will, and not requiring an elaborate illusion like a placebo experiment, as you’re assisted to see that the experiences are in fact the illusion and you’re the one with the real power to develop self-will and self-direction in your life and how you experience yourself.
Thus, if you haven’t seen this show Fear and Faith, definitely watch it and consider what it’s showing us – that we really do not have to remain limited within detrimental patterns, that fear isn’t actually real because it can be stopped, and suggest to check out the Desteni I Process, especially the new course that’s been launched, DIP Lite, which is a Free course where you get to understand how to work with thoughts, emotions and feelings, and how to direct your reactions, so that you can be the directive principle of yourself, instead of your thoughts, emotions and feelings directing and controlling you and your ability to live in this world.
For more context on the Dimensions of Character/Personalities, read the series of Heaven’s Journey to Life blog posts which deals with this topic in detail, which starts with this introduction post: Character Dimensions – Introduction: DAY 162. And you can check out the Journey to Life group on Facebook where you’ll find hundreds of blogs of those who are busy deconstructing their patterns of self limitation and sharing the process so all may benefit.
So, I’ve been practicing singing a lot lately- something that I’ve ‘always wanted to do’ – and within that was part of the ‘problem’ as to why I never seemed ‘able to do it’ and why/how I formed a perception of myself as ‘not able to do it’.
See, what I’d done is already judged myself before I’d even begun- as if somehow one should be able to just sing effectively immediately- I didn’t yet fully realize the point of that it requires deliberate consistent practice and training. I had fallen into this belief that those who were good at it ‘just were’. And that is how it would often be presented as well- by others and with my myself too where if I was asked how I was able to do something well, I’d say something like “gee, I don’t know, I just can”- thus supporting the idea that it ‘just happens’ like as if ‘by magic’ or just ‘automatically’- as if you either ‘can’ or you ‘can’t’.
This perception has really screwed with me and how I view the ‘ability’ to sing- wherein I then didn’t focus or concentrate fully on the point of practicing and training and drilling- as that’s what’s actually required to become effective at something.
From this ‘mis-perception’ that one should ‘already’ or ‘automatically’ have the ability, I formed self beliefs that I ‘was not able’ wherever/whenever I would try something and fail. I took this ‘failure’ to mean- I must not be ‘able’ to do it. Man- what a fuck-up that is! Considering that one must train to get effective at something, chances are sometimes pretty good that you might fail the first time you try- so just consider all the things I would have believed I simply ‘couldn’t do’ simply because I ‘failed’ the first time!
Within this, though, there was like a subconscious point of ‘wanting something for free’, like within myself, I had at some point decided that anything that ‘required effort’ I’d rather not bother- or rather, that I’d rather spend my time on things I’m automatically good at, as then I don’t have to waste time and effort on practice and repetition, lol- this from a belief that you can actually get things for free. But we live in a physical reality here, and thus you have to ‘get’ things through space and time. There is no free lunches.
So, realizing this basic point, that training and practice is required to develop a skill- has been immensely supportive, in that now I simply apply myself within what I’m training- realizing that I’ll only ‘get to that point’ of being effective, through the 1+1 actions I take on a regular basis, to hone and develop the skill. So now I am no longer actually wasting trying and ‘failing’ and judging myself as ‘a failure’, but am using my time effectively to practice and expand myself into and as this skill.
And within this, also discovering that the things I had previously ‘failed’ at are now open for me to try again, and see if it is simply a matter of requiring more practice and training on that specific point- so, now I’m finding I can do things that I once thought I simply couldn’t! How cool is that!
I am eternally grateful to the support I’ve received from those at Desteni and the Desteni I Process that I’ve been walking, which has assisted me with these realizations and applying them in my daily life, to be able to live practically and effectively and no longer diminish myself within accepting limitations- but to Expand myself in all ways- within this physical existence here, and be a Real, Effective human being Here- which is what I’d always wanted but never thought I could be!
The Desteni I Process is open to all who would like to commit themselves to themselves- to Expand oneself beyond the perceived limitations of the mind – and achieve one’s full Potential and Live for Real!
So, to continue now with the story of my process of becoming aware of what/how I eat, and separating ‘fact from fiction’, so to speak, meaning basically, discovering what was actually ‘real’ in terms of my eating habits/preferences- and I’ll explain just what I mean by that-
You see, what I realized was that I had never really considered eating and how/what I eat from the perspective of what it does to my physical body and whether it actually benefits my body or not. Now, I ‘thought’ I had considered that on occasions, but it was only ever from a starting point of belief, wherein I was following some knowledge or information I had heard or read, about what is apparently ‘nutritious’ or supposed to be ‘good for you’.
And therefore, I would attempt to make changes to my diet according to the knowledge and information, with the expectation of certain results based on the information I was going off of. Then I would view whatever I seemed to feel within me through those expectations. But I had not yet understood how I could be influencing and creating experiences within myself through my mind, and thus could not at that time, distinguish between what was an actual physical feeling and what was simply self-created through and by the mind.
And on top of that, I had no practical context in which to place my observations of what I experienced- meaning, I had no practical common sense perspective of how my body actually functions, or is ‘supposed’ to function, or rather, what is ‘effective’ functioning of my human physical body.
Much of the information available about the human physical body is not expressed in a common sense way looking at the hole picture from a perspective of understanding and taking self-responsibility for how we create our experience of ourselves and how we are manifested.
This is simply an outflow of the fact that we have simply not yet investigated ourselves in a common sense way, since we have been simply becoming more and more lost in the mind, believing more and more that the mind consciousness system is who we are, and more and more disregarding and separating from ourselves as the physical. Thus, our science often gets quite lost in this as well, losing itself within perspectives of ‘us’ being merely ‘observers’ to the physical, with no ability to direct the physical, like we are simply victims of the physical. For example, that our ‘genes’ determine our behaviour, taking away our response ability and making the physical ‘to blame’ for our actions. Some things may indeed be programmed into the physical, the problem is when we support the idea that everything is due to the physical, without considering our own participation, and considering how we are able to respond, how we are able to take self-responsibility and actually be able to ‘reconstruct’ ourselves as the physical in awareness of the consequences and outflows of who and what we live as.
So, it is up to us to actually start to investigate ourselves and sort out the mental bullshit from what is real, and that is basically what this process of exploring my diet was and is all about..
I walk here in a process of aligning myself til I stand in all ways as the living principle of what is best for all life. I am 100% committed to this process that I walk, as I see and realize that there is literally nothing else worth doing, whatsoever. To do anything else, would simply be a lie, I would be living a lie and thus my life would be empty, meaningless, useless, pointless, unsatisfying completely- I know, I have spent most my life walking that path of ignorance and deception- to the point that I was not even aware, that I was existing as nothing more than a robot, a mind consciousness system, and I had never actually Lived, my whole entire life, was like an illusion, not of it real.
Where was I? I was not ‘here’, not here as myself, as who I am, as a physical being in this existence- I was ‘lost’ within a mind system- within a whole fabricated constructed universe within myself. A Universe which is not real, doesn’t exist in Reality, in the Physical- and thus I practically, did not Exist. All my behaviors were controlled and predesigned within and through the mind consciousness system. I was not Here- and yet-
I was. I have always been here- even when I was existing as a mind system and hadn’t realized myself here as the physical, one and equal to the physical existence- I was here acting as the mind system- giving it life- living as it. It’s always been ‘Me’.
There was always a choice- in all the moments that’s gone Before- where I acted as the mind, there was always a choice, even if I didn’t realized or see it at the time. Sometimes I didn’t, sometimes I did- Deliberately chose to act as and live as the mind, other times it was as if I ‘had no choice’ due to the extent of preconditioning and preprogramming to such extent that I would immediately act as the mind, and no longer see ‘what I actually was giving permission to’, as I had given permission so many times before, it had become a subconscious habit. A part of my ‘ingrained nature’ so to speak. And so you can see how our ‘nature’ is simply programming, and not some ‘set in stone’ ‘unchangeable’ ‘concrete’ thing. It only seems like that, due to the extent to which we’ve accepted the programming as our ‘nature’.
I have walked enough of my Life as this Lie of Consciousness, enough to have experienced first hand, the pain and suffering that come from this, living a life of self-deception and self-separation- wherein I’m actually, literally, ‘split’ into myself as the ‘mind’ and myself as the physical. It’s when you see that that you can realize how truly bizarre that is. How we have become so separated from ourselves as the physical, that we’ll even abuse ourselves as the physical, extensively, in total disregard for the physical which is how we even are able to exist in this physical reality.
I remember, when I was younger, it was so strange to me, that it seemed we totally disregarded ourselves as the physical. I didn’t at the time have the vocabulary to put it into words, but I do now. I noticed how ‘everyone else’ in my world, which for the most part was adults, seemed to totally ignore themselves as the physical- the way they moved, the things they did, the things they said, it seemed like they were even, in a way, ‘purposefully’ or ‘deliberately’ ignoring themselves as the physical. It seemed to me, that one might be interested to explore oneself as the physical- upon finding oneself Here, in a physical human body- which is quite a fascinating piece of organic ‘machinery’, the likes of which man has yet to create anything like, as the physical is the representation of ultimate cooperation and support, and man has been anything but– as how this world currently exist clearly shows.
But of course, as one get older, you start to ‘understand’ why no one is considering the physical- because they are all much to busy as they are enslaved by the great ‘invisible machine’ of the System- which keeps them busy all the time, through and within it’s neat little Polarity Traps. Such as ‘Work’ and ‘Entertainment’- Wherein either you are busy working some predesigned job in the system, or you are busy trying to ‘entertain’ yourself as defined as spending the money you’ve earned during the time you were busy working- and it’s in polar cycles like these that the adults would go back-and-forth.
I know because I got ‘swept up’ into the machine as well, and became just another ‘cog’. I too gave in to all the Justifications and Fears and just accepted things as ‘that’s the way it is’ ‘there’s just nothing you can do about it’ ‘it must be your fate’, ‘it’s not so bad’ ‘It Could Be Worse’..
And that last statement shows that we are aware that there are others who indeed have it much worse. And we use our Fear of becoming like them, to justify keeping our heads down, as long as we have some degree of comfort. As if, keeping our heads down, and ignoring whatever has caused some to be suffering, is actually going to prevent it from happening to us. Couldn’t be farther from the truth. It is the exact opposite, in fact, because the way to make sure that we never end up ‘like that’ would be to investigate why does it happen, and then do whatever it takes to make sure it DOESN’T. happen anywhere, to anyone, ever again. Then, obviously, it can’t happen to You.
So, it’s within these realizations, that I walk this path of aligning myself to considering ALL THINGS from that perspective- of how to Create a world where None Suffer- because that will Ensure that I live in a World where I will not have to suffer. It is such profoundly Simple Common Sense- and yet, it’s a process I walk to get to the point where I actually in fact, live this Principle in All Ways, because this has Never been done before, Ever. Looking at the World- you can see we have a ‘long’ way to go yet. All the more reason not to Waste anymore Time- we’ve wasted our whole Lives- now finally, we can Start Living- working toward the goal of being able to really fully be here and express ourselves freely, as we’d like, and not be enslaved to the Money system, which determines our entire Lives for us- even whether you Live or Die. Quite fucked up, isn’t it.
It’s never ‘too late’ to Start Giving Yourself back to You, picking up all the pieces you gave away to the Mind System, reamalgamating the parts of yourself, til you stand here Whole and Sound.
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Something I’ve been considering off and on for many years now, is this point of how we are trained to have a ‘dominant’ side of the body for various activities- the most obvious example being which hand you write with- isn’t it strange actually, that we only learn with one hand? When I look at why this is I see we are trained to put all effort into one hand, thus the accumulation will seem to be ‘maximized’ so to speak, concentrate all your labor on the one point, so to get ‘maximum output’, but the more I try and explain this point, the more ridiculous it sounds. It is more of that funny fuzzy ‘logic’ of the mind, stuff. Where the mind likes to come up with all sorts of ‘reasons’ to do this or that. Instead of just consider in common sense what is best.
I can see that we are taught to write with one hand, because to learn with both would take ‘longer’, and in a slavery-based system as we have, that is just unacceptable- I see this point reflected in so many ways. Like in my schooling- often the class moves so fast, there is not sufficient time to really sit with a point and get familiar with it to a point of satisfaction- or to go deeper into a point and do further research, rather its very generalized like an overview just skimming the basics. Just a few months, few classes a week, and thats it for that subject, on to the next- but that’s how it is in this “Time is Money” system.
Throughout my life, I’ve noticed as time passed, this developing asymmetry, and at one point, maybe early twenties, I realized- Fuck. I’ve been developing this asymmetry for roughly twenty freakin years. Does that mean it would take me twenty freakin years to correct it?
Well, it’s really irrelevant at this point how long it would take or if it’s ‘possible’, all I can do is- see what I can do. When I first began considering these points I started spending time writing left-handed (I’m right-handed), which I found quite enjoyable, and I played with that for some time. It fascinated me how awkward it felt, compared to how it felt to write with my right hand, and I tried a little trick, with quite fascinating results! I told myself to stop thinking about writing with my left hand, meaning to stop expecting it to feel awkward, basically, and ‘told myself’ to make it feel like my right hand, or rather to not expect it to not feel as normal as with my right hand, lol, if that makes sense. And the results were literally instantaneous- fascinating! The writing was 100 times neater and significantly closer to what it looks like when writing with my right hand. Though I have not continued with this point very much, to bring it to a point of actual equalization.
I’ve been studying on my own about the human physical body, the structure and how it moves- and what I am seeing is that a lot of conditions and ailments that occur in older age stem from imbalanced usage of the physical body. Which means they could be quite easily prevented, by simply not learning and forming habits of using the body inequally. This information however is suppressed, because there is a lot of money to be made from treating these imbalances with drugs and such- none of which can possibly do anything to ‘cure’ it, as none address the cause- which is imbalanced use of the physical body. One thing I have found very supportive is The Alexander Technique, the point of which is to unlearn your bad habits of how you move/use your body. Quite supportive- would be great if everyone had access to this and the time to apply it. In an Equal Money System one could have the time for such things- one could actually take the time to consider the physical. Wow..
I remember as I was beginning my journey into the working world, and even before that, in school, I noticed there seemed to be no time for the physical, as if it almost didn’t even exist, such is the extent to which it’s taken for granted that here we are in this physical reality as physical beings in and as a physical human body- I mean, really quite fucked up that we all go running around like chickens with our head cut off- quite literally, except the other way around, where we are always in our head and completely detached from our body. Lol, some people try to have out-of-body experiences, well the human already do that quite extensively!
If you look at it in common sense- you don’t wanna go making imbalances in the physical- I mean, you’re not gonna go build a table and make the legs on one side shorter than the other, shits gonna fall off the table- it’s not going to be really functional as a table, is it.
With an Equal Money System we will not have to force our body into imbalances to make sure we can do enough slave labor just to support ourself in this existence. We will have the time to actually Realize ourself here, as who and what we Really are, not stuck in a Slave Race- the Human Race- Racing to some invisible finish line- never Here- in Reality. Time to Be Here.
I was going through the list of blogs of all of us who’s participating in Desteni, getting ready to update my blogroll which I’ll do soon and will take some time as there are so many blogs! It is simply so cool! to see so many people standing up and supporting themselves, supporting themselves to become more effective human beings here and not accepting themselves as limitation, and standing up and speaking about what’s actually going on in this world. A few years ago, I thought there was nobody out there that cared. Maybe there wasn’t. Doesn’t matter. What matters is what’s here now, and who and what we are going to accept ourselves to live as. It doesn’t matter who we think we are, it matters who are in our actions, which we commit in this physical world, which are real and have real effect. Here we have, through our blogs and vlogs, actual real action that is being done, actual self movement to expand self and to do so visibly, so that all may benefit. That is Real Love. That is Equality. And Oneness. Oneness being the realization that we all exist here as one existence in its totality and nothing is separate from that, and that means that everything we do or say happens here in this one existence and thus who we are is here- literally we ‘are’ here- we make ‘here’ what it is, in every moment, in every breath, you can’t escape that. If you’re here, you’re here, simple as that. So the point to ask yourself it- what are you living here? What are you living into existence into this world, as yourself?
This is not always easy to see, since we are generally trained from when we are children onward, to delude ourself as to who and what we really are, wherein we create an ‘image’ of ourself, or an ‘idea’ of ourself, that we think of ourself as, rather than seeing direct, here, what one is living as and thus creating and giving permission to exist in this world. So much has been taken for granted.
This is why Desteni has created the ‘Desteni I Process’- to assist with this exact point, of being able to really see oneself in self honesty, as who and what on is accepting themself as, so that one is then able to be the directive point of themself and their world, and no longer live as a slave to conscious, subconscious, and unconscious self beliefs and limitations, so that one can walk themself through transcending limitation to actually be free to express self here as who and what we really are, which is Life.
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Lately, a song that’s been going round in my head is the song “Misery is a Butterfly” by Blonde Redhead. I enjoy singing the song as its in a high pitch which is fun to do once in a while, for me with a fairly high voice range. Specific bits of this song will just ‘pop up’ lately, and so I’m having a look at what might be ‘behind’ that, so to speak. The specific lines that ‘pop up’ are:
Remember, when we found Misery?
We watched her, watched her spread her wings
And slowly, slowly fly around our room
And she asked for your Gentle Mind..
So when I look at these words, and consider whats going on in my life right now and how I’m experiencing myself, I have been feeling kind of overwhelmed with all the things I’m taking on, and trying to do, and having fears and worry that I won’t be able to do it all, and thus my experience of myself has been quite ‘miserable’. And after writing about this point of overwhelmed-ness on the desteni forum, I came to the point where I realized that I can just do what I can and that’s it, there’s no point to worry about it, and within this I see how I was not being gentle with myself, that I’ve been sort of ‘cruelly’ pushing myself, because that’s how the system works, that’s what the system will do, it will eat you up and spit you out and then run you over on it’s neverending path of abuse, but this doesn’t mean I must do the same to myself, because either I can ‘make it’ or I can’t. There’s no need for me to generate feelings about it, such as fears and worries, those are irrelevant and thus not real. So the Misery I’ve been going through, has literally been asking for my ‘Gentle Mind’, for me to be gentle with myself, and not torture myself through my mind as thoughts feelings and emotions. The thoughts and fears are actually only making things more difficult anyway, in fact, thus working to create that which I am fearing in the first place.
So, I can remember this point of gentleness with myself, and apply what I’ve realized in moments where I find myself in Misery, to support myself to not create such a miserable and unnecessary experience for myself. Thanks Misery
full lyrics to the song:
Dearest Jane I should’ve known better
But I couldn’t say hello, I don’t know why
But now I think, I think you were sad
Yes you were, you were, you were
What I say, I say only to you
Cause I love and I love only you
Dearest Jane, I want to give you a dream
That no one has given you
Remember when we found misery
We watched her, watched her spread her wings
And slowly, slowly fly around our room
And she asked for your gentle mind
Misery is a butterfly
Her heavy wings will warp your mind
With her small ugly face
And her long antenna
And her black and pink heavy wings
Remember when we found misery
We watched her, watched her spread her wings
And slowly, slowly fly around our room
And she asked for your gentle mind
Gentle mind, gentle mind